in my memories

there we were 

sitting under the tuscan sky

laughing at jokes none of us understand

I stroked your hair 

and you tugged on my heart strings 

you held my hand in yours

and looked me in the eye

as you told me you love

it was almost like a whisper

it all felt like warm honey 

you saw through my soul

you read me like an open book

while you kept reaching out to the most hidden parts of me 

inside the deepest, darkest corners of my soul

'don't drown'

I warned you

it's dark in there

"I'd travel the darkest of places that ever cease to exist just to fine me"

and so I let you drown'

I didn't stop you

you had reached too far to come back now

but I could still see you

there you were

making peace with my demons 

you are like a scent

a fragrance

something like a flower

a whiff of which makes my mind go hazy

something, I still can't forget 

you come out

and hold me tight 

as you screamed into my ears 

"I FOUND YOU"

you made it 

you found me 

"I'm never going to let go of you"

is what you told me 

and, I fell for you a little more 

you looked at me

with warm eyes

as you smiled softly

you touched my hand 

with affection

and I had never felt so light

you told me you'll always be here, with me. 

now that you're gone forever

I look for you in all the stars,

in every bird that passes by,

in the first autumn leaf which falls,

and in myself. 

thus I take my last breath

hoping the next time I wake up, it's next to you.